Fear of Flying

As I prepare to release my seventh book, I am stuck in business mode. My lovely editor has the pleasure of cleaning up my creative words, while I have the privilege to prepare press releases, orchestrate book signings, do social media promotion, etc. We are an independent publisher, which means I have to do most of the leg work. I don’t mind. I know that God will expand our business soon.

I’d written this press release almost a month ago, putting it on hold for specific details of the release date, a venue, etc. I had “send press release” out on my to do list for the last week. I noticed, however, that whenever I set my mind to get online, make sure it was polished, and send it out…I got side tracked or found something else to do.

Doubt crept in my mind quickly. “You’ve sent other press releases before. What came of that? Nothing.” “You do all this work and nothing happens.” “Who do you think you are sending this press release to STL Today and other major media outlets? They won’t respond.”

Three paragraphs ago, I told you this was my 7th release. It’s been nine years since my first one. I’ve edited countless books for others, written plenty of press releases, resumes and other communications that have aided my clients in many different areas. Yet here I was, afraid to send my own press release.

What is wrong with us that we are paralyzed by the smallest chance of failure that we don’t even try? What is wrong with us that we are paralyzed by the smallest chance of success that we don’t even try? Is one worse than the other?

I’ll be honest and say that both are an issue for me. Insecurities creep in whenever I think about the vision that God has given me. Am I truly the right person to lead this? What if I mess up? As a publisher, I’m helping others create their written visions. What if I fail them? It’s one thing to disappoint myself, but I don’t really want to disappoint anyone else.

I’m sharing this because its apart of recovery. The ultimate slap in the face to God is discrediting Him. By doubting myself, I’m ultimately doubting Him. I cannot continue to say I am a believer and that I know what God says is true, if I don’t believe what He says about me.

Below are a few scriptures that support letting go of fear:

“And my God will meet all of your needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus” – Phil 4:19

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

There are plenty more, but you get the point. If not, here it is: don’t fear flying. If you must fear something…fear being stagnant, fear missing your calling, fear never knowing if you could have succeeded, fear missing out of the journey, fear not being able to help others, fear not fulfilling your God given purpose.

Now THAT’S scary.

So since we are conquering fears, I’d love for you to check out my latest book, My Mother’s Child. It deals with themes of generational curses, family dysfunction and mental disease. You can get more information about it at dipublications.com.


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