My Year in Recovery

So here’s the thing…I didn’t even realize this blog was a year old until those Facebook memories that I have a love/hate relationship with reminded me.

Sad.

Hey. It is what it is. But I’m still very excited to celebrate this journey and all I’ve learned this year from starting this blog.

I wrote my first poem when I was 8 years old. Although I still dabble in poetry, fiction is my heart. Fiction is a world I can control and do what I want. If I don’t want to be heartbroken, I don’t have to be in fiction. It’s a world that comforts me, but it’s not reality for me.

Starting this blog was scary because I wasn’t truly ready to face reality. I have some internal issues and obstacles to overcome when it comes to my self-worth and value. One thing I wholeheartedly believe is that my pain is a way to help others. I can’t help anyone recover if I’m not sharing my own recovery journey.

Here are a few things I’ve learned in my year in recovery, with a few honorable mentions to posts from this year.

No is a complete sentence.

I learned to stop giving excuses or reasons to things I did not want to do. I cannot give my all to something that I am doing out of obligation only. If the passion isn’t there, I don’t want to be either. That’s not fair to anyone involved. It’s better to say no than to put everyone in a situation where you aren’t giving your best. It took awhile and a lot of practice and at times I still feel a tug on my heart to do things for others that I may not want to do, but now that I’ve stopped doing a lot of things, I have more time for those I who truly need me. Most importantly, I have time for myself. It’s up to you to, Find your happy

It’s okay to fall.

You are never truly ready for something new, so stop assuming you have to be all the way prepared to do it. Falling or tripping only means you’re trying and that’s more than some people can say. It’s okay to not be perfect. Learn that lesson and keep pushing. You messed up…shake it off!

Don’t take everything personal.

Laugh. It’s okay. Being stressed out, offended and upset your whole life will only cause wrinkles, illnesses and loneliness. Who wants that? Not me! Even when people directly hurt you, a lot of times they doing it from a personal hurt. You cannot control others, you can only control your reaction. Learn some Mind Control Tips  and keep it pushing.

I am enough.

God made me. Period. Anyone who doesn’t value that can move around. This takes all the pressure off me to be at a certain level. I love that I never have to think that God was wrong. when it comes to my destiny or how He made me. That love is enough. He equipped me with everything I need. I just have to be smart enough to use it.

 

So here’s to my first year as a blogger! If I’ve helped you in anyway throughout this year, please share! I’d love to know my vulnerability isn’t in vain. LOL. Thanks for reading and can’t wait to share more with you all!

Happy recovering!

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8 thoughts on “My Year in Recovery

  1. Kia Smith says:

    Happy blog anniversary! You truly have a gift and I believe you should keep at it. Using writing a way to recover from certain things is a tool I use as well and I agree with you when you say pain is a way to help others. We all have a story to tell.. keep telling yours.

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  2. tiffmason08 says:

    Hey Aye! Happy Anniversary! The post that I recall that most resonated with me is “Don’t die in your Cubicle”. My life has been so monotonous, but that really spoke life into me that my desk is not my dead end.

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